Biggest Fool

Tomorrow is the day. Two years back, i was a big fat fool. Believing your honeyed words. I fell so deeply with you. I thought you were the best, but you've proved me wrong. You know what, even a retart is cleverer than me. Thanks for everything. _!_ _!_

Although I promised Pook and some people to not post bout him. Theres an exception with everything right?? But you know wad, I was the biggest fool. The fattest, naive fool. From the day you left, I sweared, I will never fall deeply with someone again. Yea, i often tell people not to dwell on the past. But i myself do it too. You made me deprived. Girls, dont be farking stupid to believe guys when they say 'i love you forever'. I tell you, if someone(hopefully no1 will tell me) tells me that he will love me forever, middle fingers upp. Maybe they meant it at the point when they say, but please la hor, use your brainnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn. Forever? WOW, how many couples can last from secondary school until they grow old. Very very little okay. The more they say they will love you forever, the more they wont. If he rlly meant to do it, they will keep it in their heart.

I remembered, there was once when i dreamt that you returned to me. I woke up perspiring. Seriously, you are one of the biggest, fattest and shortest jerk on earth. Fuck you upside down kayyyy.

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School suck today. Got scolded by W??? for countless time today. He/she scold like some freak. people from other classes were seriously super KPO, can be market the aunties and uncles. W??? _!_ you kayy. Super pissed off today.

After school got my AVA tee, look better den last time. This time isn't dry fit which is so much comfortable and better. Happy. Shall wear it on every friday. Can earn CIP somemore.

Exams are next week, and finally, I'm proud to announce that I've finally started my engine for studying already. Can go celebrate already. Yipppppppppieeeeesss. Shalll continue with my studies already.

Ps: The usage of my vulgarities seems to be going up. Need To Stop Now.

Rainy day, moody

I'm back with all my homeworkkkkkkkk doneee. So fast ar? MYE next week wad. Still dont buck up confirm eat duck egg alr. Why no exam mood huh?? It seems like holiday, so relax. This is so wrong! S-t-a-r-t S-t-u-d-y-i-n-g N-o-w.

Tonight ahwu last episode. Ahhhh, I will miss him. Lololol. Who will win ar?? DYT de character in that show so slutty, spoilt his image. I support ahwu!!!!

I tell you, Shawn is sick. He has all the unthinkable yellow jokes okay. For example yesterday that joke, i laugh till peng. Too creative already he. Lol.

Todays writing test was horrible cause i forgot the format. It sucks okay. Samuel Goh should just die man. He sucks alot. He walk like a sissy, ew. I hate sissies alright. Got man to be, but dowan. Whats the problem man, yucks. He also got PMS, screaming at his for no reason. Remember that time when he allowed us to have a toilet break of 2mins. Its like, where got enough. When its not even 2mins he already screaming like a idiot. Totally disgrace himself only. How contradicting. I know, im not suppose to gossip. But you know wad, he really did those stupid things k. So, dont say i gossip, im only saying wad nonsense he did.

K, i feel much better now. Im off to relax. Night den mug. I need Ahwu. T.T

Lame people with big mouth

Okay, this world is getting sick. The mouth of the people are getting bigger. They can just any o how say i like someone which is freaking crap. Control your mouth for goodness sake. Is it for entertaining purposes? If thats the reason, i should say. Get a life, little kid. Grow up for goodness sake.

School's fun, esp DnT. Released super early. 9.40 released already. Meaning, i had two periods of recess. Shiok right. Went back to class, put my bag and off to toilet. Waited for FnN people to release. 10++then went for recess. Gobbled up my food, and off to do my ava duty. Chinese lessons were as usual, BORED. I hate chinese. Remember i had a bad tummy ache and that day got chinese test. Ya, that chinese paper i pass. I just anyhow wrote my answer and i pass. Wow, im shocked.

Okay, enough of crapping. I need to start studying for today. Remember little kids, grow up ya? Watch your mouth. :D Btw, do slut have cakes??

Will rainbow be the nicest after a huge storm? Why doesn't it happen in my life. I want my life to be as beautiful, as interesting as the rainbow. The rain came and went, again and again, but it seems that it has been a long time since I saw a rainbow.

Edited

I'm cold cold cold. I'm going to hide under my blanket and sleep my day away. :D Mugging for MYE will start tomorrow. Ton with my buddy books everynight starting tmr. Don't be shock if you see me look very horrible in school.

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You know the advertisement that the ahgmoh kids speaks chinese? Those angmohs are just adorable. The way they speak makes me go gaga. They speak chinese better than me, im sucha failure. Who ask chinese lessons to be darn bored. Gosh, tomorrow is monday and theres chinese. Ew.

Wow, tv seems to have some grant event now huh. Going to catch it now. Byebye.

Time check:7.07pm.

Saturday

When is 30May coming. I'm so looking forward to it you know. Exams are coming yet I'm thinking bout the trip to Taiwan. I just want to go! I'm so going to shop shop and eat and eat all I can. I don't care if I gain back the weight that i tried losing for the past months. I want to enjoy!

Mid year coming, and i haven study a single bit. Really, I'm so dead. I need go mug already. Life is bull shit man.

I want to change my blogsong, any suggestions???

Sucky food, great day

School was great today. I paid the tee already. $11 dollars only, cause school subsidies half of it. Hope the tee will turn out nice.

After school, rushed back home. Changed and off to orchard to meet mom. I waited super long for the bus, and the weather is totally killing me. I tell you, I wished that i was home sleeping. My panda eyes are getting worst. I sleep very early everyday, but i still got panda eyes. Badbadbad. I dont want to have panda eye's. After orchard, took MRT to lavender, took my passport and off to bugis. Eat lunch and went home. Here i am now. :D

Tomorrow im going granddad house fold indigo(?) for granny. 60trashbag. Hah, unity leads to success huh. I really hope you're happy wherever you are, I miss you ahma.

Yes! Breakfast tomorrow have soya milk! Yesyes! I cant wait!!!! Love soya milk alot k. Thinking bout it now makes me drool. Hah. Tomorrow faster comeee. Yesterday didn't post cause i was tired and partly because of ykw, I just want to nua. Hah, but im fine now. :D

I back to single. "Guys that aren't worth waiting should be forgotten quickly." So, lets not dwell on the past and move forward. Hah, ohya. Am i very stuck up??? Must change, Lol. Kay, no more vulgarities. Im a good girl. :D I realise this year i very suay.

--Summary for this week--
1) Test the whole week already. Really tired of mugging, i want to get good grade. I want to be perfect. I want to work towards my goal, but its really stressful. I don't want to give up, i shall persevere.

2) I enjoy writing on Astro's table. Colouring and writing all nonsense. Bryan always say that i eavedropped them. But i didn't, they speak so loud and i could hear everything. They talk all sorts of crap, pure crap. With Bryan's singing, i will wake up. Why? Cause my hair are all standing. Hah, just joking. He sings quite well. Lol.

3) I'm starting to attend maths remedial lessons. I want to buck up on my maths you know. Dont want to disappoint myself and later regret. Although i seriously hate staying back for lessons, it seriously sucks.

4) I missed both of the dates that classmates want to watch HAMSAP SOUP. Tuesday had cca and today i need to take my passport. Wasted, i really wished to catch that movie. Any kind soul will watch with me???

5) Im going to make some time out to meet cousin at tamp next week. So far, sill considering if i should go.

6) JAREL IS A SUPER NICE GUY. REALLY. He messaged me last night cause of... He is seriously nice. I didn't know he was so nice until yesterday. Lol, you rock too k? Though i rock the most. :BB

7) Should i go Sarawak with the school for the field trip?? But the place very run down. I will defintely miss home. Should i?????

8) IM SO GOING TO ASK DAD TO BUT ME A WII TONIGHT. Although i know the answer already. Hah, hes just going to reject me anyw. So just ask for fun. Miracles do happen right.

9) Im going to flunk my Humans. Great, cause i suck at history. Social studies, killed by SBQ. Any ideas how to mug for humans??? Esp History. Save me and you rock like jarel! Hah.

10) Im writing this crap now, cause im plain bored. I want to bath but sister using bathroom. Hah, now that shes done, im so going to get my hot bath and watch the korean show. Superb k. 9pm tonight, ahwu's show, VERY VERY NICE. Cause got DaiYangTian. :DD Super handsome.

11) Pook is super troublesome i tell you. Although he rock too.

We won

3e3 won! 3e3 Rock man. Brenda, WE LOVE YOU!!!! We thought we dont have the chance to even go to the semi-finals. 3e1 is way too strong. Thanks to Brenda, tada! We won. We cheered though we looked like fools. We screamed and screamed. Sub in and sub out was my job. Jeanette had a big blister but she continued playing, shes a strong girl. I know it hurt alot, the way she limp show it all. Susanna had blood clot on her feet. She said she going to prick the thing till the black black blood(?) come out. OhmyGod right?

After match and all, went home. Oh ya, did i tell you I change shirt with su. Lololol. Her House tee is seriously big. Im like wearing a dress or whatever, but she said that its okay. Going to wash it asap and return it to her. C:

Omg, guess whos bday it is tomorrow? FUCK YOU HARD BITCH. Go die la. Need to cry to ur mummy??? Go complain la hor, mummy boy. *whine whine* Goodness, I cant believe i still remember his bday. Waste my energy only. Ah, whatever, just die la. Please la hor, so fat, maybe your birthday wish should be.... Erm... Slim down at least 20kg?? LOL. OMG 20kg alot sia. 2big pack of grains can tahan my family for dunno how long. OMG 20kg den fall back to acceptable weight range. OMG, its frigging alot. PUKE! _|_ you k. Lol. Oh ya, Susanna just teach me not to say fat cause its rather hurtful. She told me to use "horizontally advantage." But for you ar... Aiyo, think also dont think bout it la. Lol.

Recalling bout last night. Someone asked me why i hate him so much. And i said "I hate him so much cause i love myself. I love myself so much that when someone hurt me so deeply, of course i will hate him la." Hah, anyhow bombed actually. Wait, right now, when im typing, i dont have the feeling of hating him sia. Why ar? But when i scold all this, makes me feel better. EH! Whats happening to me? Isit because im scolding for the sake of scolding??

Ahh, im not suppose to say any vulgarities, but since its you. Got exception la. You should be honored la hor. Feel happy. Dead freaking rotten fatty creature. Ew.

You suck alot cause I rock the Most. :BB So random, i know. Dont steal. C:

5Cip gone

Dave, thank you very much huh. I told you i was sick, thats why i didn't go on the second day. Its during the march holiday and you dont expect me to go and see the doctor right? Afterall im down with fever only. Oh my god, you are the most idiotic teacher ever la k? just go bang the wall and die. Bang harder if you need, bang till you faint and bang till you drop. Sucha good tcher you are huh. I appreciate it ALOT.

School was quite alright. Had maths lessons after school, and rushed off to cca at 4. Damn tired. Tomorrow got writing test? Ohmy, i haven prepare anything. I din bring geog notes today cause i thought got test today.

Tomorrow is basketball, interclass. 3e3 first match is against 3e1, oh no. You know how good the basketballers are in e1. Hopefully, we can get into the semi finals and the finals. I bang people, susanna scream and scream, brenda shoot and shoot. Woo, perfect strategy huh? Im just joking.

K, im off to bath now. Damn dirty and sticky. Mugging later on, and tv-ing. Finally a rest after a long day, im dead beat. Nightz.

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Finished bathing, im off to studying. Oh ya, tomorrow got to go school early. I'm so going to be panda already. Mid year's coming, everything is squeezing together. I cannot breathe, save me will you? :C

I picked myself up where i fall. I will never let myself get hurt the same way again. Understanding someone is an issue, accepting his weaknesses is another. I finally understand.

New Skin

I changed my blog skin already. You can say i zilian or whatever shit. I just like it alot. After all its my own blog.

Roar, tomorrow is Tuesday. Have to wake up early in the morning for school. Oh my god. After school got CCA not? How come nobody seems to know if theres cca tomorrow. Chinese test today was horrible. My tummy was aching and it was so painful that i wanted to roll on the floor. I cannot concentrate on the test. I scribble as much as i could. I soon finish the paper. It was only 11.50 when the paper only end at 12. I wanted to check the scripts, but the pain was totally uncontrollable, i cannot focus. Not even a single bit. I gave up on the paper, i knew, i would flunk it. I tried my best. D:

CME had sex talk. Why do they even talked about it? Are they introducing pornography to students? Its seriously stupid. Watching a stupid video, and writing reflection at the end. Whats the purpose of it? Wasting our time, or just killing time? I dont understand, really. Afterall, we are 15, we know whats right and whats wrong. I suppose?

K, what should i do tomorrow after school. Im ending class at 2+ while his at 4. Argh, i shall go home and sleep. :BB Or movies huh? Ahhh, everything is crap here.

Blogskins

I want to change my blogskin le! Hah.

I dont want to have anymore expectation cause i dun wan to get hurt.

Hah. I want go shopping. :BB I took part in the inter bball? Aizai lehh? Haha. Tmr is Sunday again. Mug mug mug tomorrow. Must complete maths homework and my physics homework. Bleh, i become sucha good girl lehh. Midyr coming already. Im feeling the stress. Who cares. I just want to chat on msn now.

Man, the weather seriously sucks today, warm. ew

ps; I wont shed a tear for a guy again.

random

You wont get hurt when there isn't any expectations. How true can that be. I shall be super contented and stop expecting from people. Live with what i have :D

Yesterday

Physics sucks physics sucks physics suck ALOT. Yesterday 2period of physics was indeed an torture. Mr shi or wadever, went on and on and on without stopping. I tell you, I sure die die chopchop confirm going to fail physics. Why study physics when we're going to return all the facts back to the tcher after O's. Its seriously dumb, really. As per usual, once physics end, dada and i will go to the toilet. See, physics can cause serious headaches. Ahh, whatever, i try my best not to fail la hor, which is quiteeeeeee impossible. :D

Napfa was alright, but very tiring. It ended at 3.50pm and the guys started their napfa. See guys run and the (L)ong(J)ohn Aw go scold us. Nice one la hor, please, look into the mirror and stop acting as if you one pretty woman. S-T-O-P SEDUCING GUYS, FOR GOODNESS SAKE. You dun scold guys, you dun catch the attires of the guys. You are just frigging plain bias. Xuete you, spoil peoples mood. Waste saliva.

Im damn tired yesterday. Reached home, bath, eat,complete summary and i slept at 8.30. Wow, i know, its damn early. You know wad, i feel more tired despite sleeping so early.

Wow, today got AngMo people come our school. Drool? Dun hamsap please. :D

Sick again?

Ohman, i think im sick again. Whole day in school was terrible. The start of the day was horrible. D: Im going lunch with mom now. Hungry.

Ps: Please be safe, i love you. D:

Long long day

Its wednesday already. Time really flies huh. Another week is gonna be over, and its going to be mids soon. The chinese test was alright as we could use the notes, and i found my chinese dictionary. Hurray, dont have to waste money! :BB

Hurhur, tomorrow is Napha(?) already. My legs are aching for dunno wad reason. I hope it will be fine tmr. DnT sucks kay. For the first time in my life, i seriously hate Dnt alot. I keep hurting myself in that workshop. I tell you, brenda and my thingy is frigging ugly. As in, Its the ugliest among the whole class. Whatever, cause we are the only girls. If the guys cant do better den us, they should just jump off the buildings.

So, after school went mac with su and ppl. slacked, went back to school. Put my folio under my table, take my geog file. Went toilet. And homed. Good girl lehh? I know. eheh, i got geog test tmr. So, you know what i mean huh? Bye. And please, wish me luck. Im so stress k.

Changi

I'm back. I'm sticky. I'm tired. I'm happy. I Enjoyed. I'm tanned.

I'm back from changi! Wows. The weather today is seriously good. If im at home la, cause i can sleep. Seriously, while walking, all i can think of is, i need water. Sad case la hor, never felt so pathetic before and im dragging myself. Every single step seems to be a mile. Its was tiring, indeed. Luckily im not in the uni group, or else i will be a burden to them. Hah.

So, school was alright just that it was seriously bored. PE was slacky and maths was horrible. I FRIIGING SCREW THE WHOLE TEST UP. Shit this la kay. I seriously need to mugg. Arghh. Pissed off. Sian tomorrow got chinese test, and i need to memorise the format. hah, so byebye.

I want go mac tmr. MacWingssss. :D

Happy.

Im happy im happy im happy. Dont ask why, im happy. Those that know, good for you, those who dun, den too bad. :BB I'm so mean, i know. Hah

So, chinese sucks la k. However, because of somethings which makes me damn happy during chinese. DnT release super late. Im on diet today. In the morning ate muffin before going to school. Skipped recess and lunch. Until 5plus, when i reach home den eat my lunch. Ate a little, and feel like puking after that. Poor me, i think im going to fall sick soon. NOOOO!!! I dont wan to fall sick on weekadys. Im a good girl, wan go school study wad.

After school went to some rehersal and reached home at 5plus? Fun la horrr. Tomorrow gonna ask chun siang go on th stage, i got stage fright. :D Bribe him with the essay that i just did for him. Hah. i know im bad, but who cares. What if im so nervous and i faint on stage uh? Hah. Great day. I hope that everyday will be like that.

Ily :X

Shit life

Im so going to lose you.

Kay, i found out somethingsss and was seriously afraid. Afraid of wad? Ask me personally, i dun want to share private stuffs here. Too unsafe, and i dun want to be the center of attraction.

Lets talk bout my life. Everything isn't going smoothly for me. So what if i cherish? Cherish already I still will end up losing things. Indeed, I come into this world with nothing, and at the end of the day, i go with nothing. Seriously, i tried to cherish things around me but, I feel the pain even more cause i cherished it too much. So, Should i cherish things around me? Life sucks la k.

Ps agn; Im going to lose you for sure. I have the feeling. i dunno what i should do to prevent this from happening. maybe i should just sit back, and wait for the day to come. Am i just paranoid or wad? Seriously, can this world end faster please? End the agony of all the earthings.

Speechless

The fear in me now. So hard to explain. I dont know why, but im afraid. Just afraid.

Second

Im Back, after so longg. Missed me yea? ps, i bhb. So, 2solid days of rotting is damn enough alr. I've been resting for so many weeks, and im so going out next week. I dont care, I JUST WANT TO GO OUT. Im not eating for recess this whole week, so dont tempt me. :D Its quite impossible unless i bring sanwich to schh. Worth considering, see whether tmr got go NTUC not first. :BB yummy hams, here i comee.

I dun feel like posting anymore. I take damn long to type ^ the chunk of words up there. So, byebyebye. I want faster Monday. :D

Raining Cats and Dog

Its raining! Its raining!!!! Again. Im sooo cold.. So, nua nua nau. Fold the indigo or something for my ahma, and fold until become orange fingers. Hah, back to fold more. BRB, later update?? Perhaps.

COLD

Cold cold cold cold. I'm srly cold. My legs are freezing and im a freezing power ranger. Was suppose to go ECP with family, but bcoz of the big and heavy rain, the trip was cancelled. Wasn't that dissappointed caused played mahjong in the end. I won like $5plus in just the dong feng, but after that they dun want play already. So pester mom to play blackjack instead. I lost twenty cents den i say, ma, i dun want to play already. Im a kaisu girl.

Srly, i dun recommend people to go sakura. The buffet that has the xiaoniangre thing, yknw. Cause the food isn't that nice and the price isn't that cheap. The floor is sticky till my slippers stick on them and very hard to pull out also. Thats how oily it is.

Hah, good friday today. I almost finish all my hmewrk except chinese. Ew, chinese sucks. No, i mean, chinese Lessons sucks. Yucks. Btw, i got no usable pen in my pencil case and i think i should change the whole pencil case. Shiat, so sway, i lost my 25cents ruler again, IN THE DNT ROOM. Arghhh. Second time lost somemore at the same place. Ew, Dnt room is JINX.

Random

I never update for so many days alr. Tuesday was seriously a ubber long day, morning had to drag myself up early in the morning for Ava duty, 2.4 during PE and went home after school. And the super suay thing is that, i wanted to save money by cooking instant noodle, in the end, when the water just boil, the gas no more. Scary thing is that, when i turned the knob to 'off'', the fire still on. so called dad and he said its okay. Wow, i din eat for recess and monkey didi was like rushing me to school. Ran to school, and rushed to canteen. I ate super alot things okay. Lets see, 1pizza, 1mummie noodle cracker, 1tidbit anddd a cup noodle. I was super satisfied after that, and had a bottle of green tea to mark the end of my mealS.

I pass my 2.4! Hah, proud of myself. Congratz me please. Thanyou in advance. :D

Long long day

Woke up at 7 in the morning, went to market and had breakfast. Had BeeHons, which doesn't taste good at all and went to granddad's house. Rest for awhile, and started playing mahjong. Shiok kay, cause i win. 10.30: went down, took the shuttle bus and off to the temple. The smoke made tears rolled down. I beared with it, cause i know, what i do now is the best for you. I missed you, alot. I wished that you will be fine. And always being happy.

After temple, went back granddad's house, pray lunched and continued our mahjong. I just reached home, and im seriously tired. Goood night, going to slp alr.

ps:I just found out something. So omg k.

Misunderstanding

So many things happened. I'm sorry. I din mean those things.

A day gone again

Hello yellow fellow! My burned finger seems to be alright already. Doesn't hurt as much as yesterday. Hurray, lets go celebrate people.

3e2 classroom is seriously warm, the air in it, is totally unFRESH. If i got posted to e2 last year, den everyday got free sauna, slimming session. Come to think about it, it isn't that bad afterall right? Geog test sucks, and Venessa called me a saddist cause i said that if the world want to end, end faster. And, Mrs Tan go demestrate how cow belch, laugh till i roll on the floor. :D I'm feeling the stressssssss. Save meeeeee!!!! Ying xiong, kuai lai jiu mei!!! Paiseh, i bhb la. :X

Tests coming up:
Monday; physics
Monday;maths
tuesday;P.geog
&&more to come. ohmygod
4may is middd already. SHIAT

Ava x3

Yesterday had games, while preparing the games, Zuhri come kpo ask wad we doing. Lucky got reason, or else... So, his face was srly gl yesterday k, and i seriously cannot stand his face. Become DM den yaya already. Tsk.

So, yesterday was funfunfun. While carrying the bucket of water bags, my socks dropped on the floor so ask zhangsheng help me take. So paiseh k, cause i think i got hongkong leg. Hah, atleast, i change my sock everyday, so shouldn't be that bad, i hope?

After AVA went home, and my foot had loads of blisterS. Was tired after all the games and had a bottle of "BIRD nest Drink" which is totally sugar solution cooked with pandan, bottle packaging. Still not bad la, i will buy it again thou. :X

I think my pet gonna die already. Sob, im not a good owner, shall go revive it now. FACEBOOK-ING! I haven started on my geog. C-O-N-G-R-A-T-Z T O M E.

Ps; I got tricked twice today. Happy april FOOL. Baka.

Burned finger

I burned my finger. By the soldering iron. All doogie's fault, ask me help him make. Its like a cooked sausage now, so painful k. Whats more the acid or whatever water, keep having contact with my hand, WILL I DIE?? Ohmy, so worried. K so, today was boring, and backstabber is just by my side, omg. Must watch what i say next time, her/his mouth very HIONG one siol. o:

Tomorrow got geog test again. So stress is here again, but who cares, im going united square with mom now. DONT STALK ME. :X

Withloves,
Jinjie